Hello Number!!!

I weighed myself today and...


I LOST 9.5 POUNDS!!!

I'm at 192; a number I haven't seen since high school!!! 47 pounds to go til i'm at my goal :)

Week 8 Weigh-Ins

I cannot even believe that it's been 8 weeks since I started this life change. I feel amazing and am so proud of myself for sticking to it. This is the first time I've ever lasted this long and still have motivation. I will be weighing myself tomorrow to see if I've lost anymore weight. I'm hoping to be under the 200 mark this week :) This week I tried out my hoop and dancing dvd; both kicked my freaking butt and I only lasted about 5 minutes. I so badly wanted to last longer, but my body couldn't take it. I'm going to keep working at it and see how that goes.

Here's my measurements for this week:
Bust: 44 inches (no changes from last week)
Waist: 47 inches (no changes from last week)
Hips: 52 inches (up 1 inch from last week)

So all in all, I hit a plateau I think, better luck next week and praying I see the 100's tomorrow :)

Great News!

I've weighed myself today and....


I'VE LOST 25 POUNDS in 7 weeks by eating good and doing moderate walking.exercise!!!

I'm about a third of the way to my goal and it feels soooo soooo good!

History on Fertility

So this is going to be a post that is really hard to write, but I feel I should share my struggles because there may be someone out there who is in the same boat I was and needs someone who understands what they're going through, so here it goes. For a year or so, I was embarrassed and ashamed to talk about my health, but I realize now, that it may help someone else. I try and keep my health/personal life personal, but I feel this is important and what I am being lead to do.

As many people know, my husband Josh and I have been married for 2 years. They've been good years for the most part, but ever couples undergoes struggles and this is one of the biggest ones for us. It started about 2 years ago for us, we had just gotten married and started to think about our futures and what we wanted to do in them. The discussion, of course, brought up the question of whether or not we wanted children. For me, there was never any doubt in my mind that I didn't want to be a mother, it's something I had dreamed of being for years. Needless to say, I was smart enough to know that I needed to wait until I felt the time was right to start trying. I knew at 20, I wasn't prepared and neither was Josh; we wanted to enjoy our lives as newlyweds, so that is what we did.

Then, about a year and a half ago, I started to realize that I had not had a period in a very very long time. I don't know how long it had been, but I knew that I hadn't had one in at least 6 months. I knew something was wrong, but kept trying to convince myself that maybe my body was still trying to cleanse itself of the birth control that I had taken for 5-6 years prior. I knew that I needed to do the adult, smart thing and make an appointment with a doctor to get a pap done to see what was going on. The sad thing was, since I'm hardly ever sick, the hospital had dropped me as a patient and my physician refused to see me anymore. I then decided to call the same hospital and attempt to get an appointment with the Women's Clinic and to my luck, I was able to do so. I described to the nurse that I had not had a period in a while and that I needed to be checked out, so I was set up for a n appointment.

A few weeks later (summer of 2009) I went to the appointment. I was terrified. I felt liek most people would think I was a total idiot for going so long without a period to schedule an appointment. The OB-GYN was really nice and gave me a pap. The reading came back unreadable. If I wasn't scared before, I was terrified now. A few weeks later I was referred to another OB-GYN, this time a male to figure out why my results came back bad. I had never, ever had a male doctor before, but at that point, I sucked it up and dealt with it because I needed to try and get healthy. He gave me another pap and then decided to ask me questions about my cycle health. He asked if I had gained a rapid amount of weight and I told him yes (About 60 pounds in 2 years). I also was sprouting hairs on my neck, chin, throat, etc. He told me he thought that my bosy had stopped producing progesterone and instead had starting to release excess amounts of testosterone, explaining the hair growth in weird places. He also felt that I may have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). I had never heard of the condition prior to that visit, but basically, the body stops ovulating and producing progesterone. The folicals them form cysts on the ovaries as a reult of not being releases in a monthly cycle. He told me that it would explain the testosterone and hair growth, along with weight gain. It also makes trying to concieve extremely hard. I felt my whole world had shattered; I felt hopeless, broken, and like I wasn't a normal person. All my life, I wanted to be a mom, and now I may not be able to be and it broke my heart.

I then had an pelvic ultrasound done to see if I did in fact have cysts on my ovaries. I watched the lab tech scan my uterus and ovaries and knew that there was at least one. The OB-GYN later confirmed that I did have one water filled cyst on my right ovary. It wasn't solid filled, which was a plus, but it was about the size of a golf ball. I was put on a synthetic form of progesterone for 10 days to see if it would cause my body to ovulate and restart the cycle. To my surprise, it did and it gave me a step of hope.

I then took a month supply of birth control to have a cycle (even though not body controlled). A month later I went in for my 2nd pelvic ultrasound. I was probably more scared than before as I got scanned. I felt like the cyst had spread and watched the screw like a hawk. I then went too have the results read to me, and it was the best news of my life. The periods I had had, flushed out my system and the cyst had collapsed on it's own. I was cyst free! The OB-Gyn felt I had made a 100% turnaround and released me to start trying to conceive and only come back yearly or if something had happened.

I am so so lucky that my body is back to normal, I've had regular cycles for 7-8 months that were completely controlled by my body, not by pills or birth control. My husband and I started trying for a baby in December and so far nothing has happened, but I feel like it's going to soon. God has healed me and blessed me. I have hope and know that I will get to enjoy parent hood soon :) I do admit, that it does get aggravating when people ask me when we're going to have a baby. We've been trying hard and hopefully it'll happen soon. So please, just have patience lol.

I know that PCOS is becoming more frequent among young women and it can feel like the end of the world. If you have any questions, I'm more than happy to answer them and help out in any way I can. You're not alone and it's not the end of the road, God answers prayers :)

Last Saturday I got up and took a fertility test )the one from First Response). I had to wait 30 minutes for results ( felt like forever!!!) but needless to say it was positive!!! Yay! That means that we need to keep trying :) Just proof, that there are answers to prayers!

Week 7 Weigh-Ins

Woo Hoo! Just measured myself and it's another great week of weigh-ins. It's been 7 weeks since I had any bit of Caffiene. It hasn't been easy, but I've stayed motivated and continue to drink my water :) One thing that really felt great was today when Josh told told me that my "gut seems to be a lot smaller." Well duh, it is :) I can't tell a huge difference now, but when I'm starting to notice my pants fitting looser than they used to. I dunno if I've lost a pants size or what, because I'm holding off on doing any serious clothes shopping until I hit my goal. Needless to say, I don't know where I am weight loss and it's okay because the inches are shedding off and it feels so great!

Here's the weigh-ins for this week:
Bust: 44 Inches (Down half an inch from last week)
Waist: 47 Inches (Down and inch and a half from last week)
Hips: 51 Inches (Down 2 inches from last week!!!)

I'm so almost out of the 50 inch diameter body parts! Yay!What have I dont this week to stay focused?

I have found a new love and it's Sobe Life Waters. My favorite flavors are Mango Melon and Black and Blue Berry. They keep me hydrated, have a slight sweetness so I can trick my body into thinking it's getting a treat, and has 0 calories!


I have also been loving the Earth Grains 100% Natural Thin Buns. I get them in Whole Wheat and make sandwiches a lot. I use the Fat Free Laughing Cow Swiss Cheese Spread and i'm satisfied! So so good!


And look what arrived yesterday :)Is it not the cutest? I had this custom made from Sunshine Designs on Etsy for about $30 bucks shipped. She was so amazing to work with and a huge help for me.


I now have motivation to exercise because I tried this last night and my abs are so weak I can barely keep it up lol. With practice, I'll master it though, that and my Dancing With the Stars dvds :)

So here's where I stand so far:
Bust: Week 1: 48 inches Week 7: 44 inches (Down 4 inches total)
Waist: Week 1: 51 inches Week 7: 47 inches ( Down 4 inches total)
Hips: Week 1: 56 inches Week 7: 51 inches (Down 5 inches total)

Woo hoo! I feel amazing!!!

Weign-in Week 6

So this week diet still wasn't all that great, but I did eat in moderation. I also ordered my hula hoop for exercise and am excited to get it :) Ii think tomorrow I'm gonig to start up on using my Dancing With the Stars Jive cd; last time kicked my butt and I'm sure tomorrow will too. I haven't ballroom danced in forever, but when I used to, I loved it!

Here's this weeks measurements:
Bust:44.5" (Down 1 inch from last week, so yay!!!!)
Waist:48.5" (Down an inch and a half from last week, yay!!!)
Hips:53" (Down half an inch from last week, yay!!!)

I'm super proud of myself! This time next year I'll be taking a beach vacation and my goal is to be a size 12 so I can wear a bikini :) I think I can do it; a long way to go, but I can do it if I stay focused :)

Week 5 Weigh-In

This week has been total hell for me. I've been stressed with finals, life, etc. I've cried a lot this week and have not been all that pleasant. I'm hoping maybe that made weigh ins good for this week. I did better eating and kept up on drinking my water :)

Bust:45.5" (stayed the same, i'm still up from 2 weeks ago :( )
Waist:50" (up 2 inches this week)
Hips:54.5" (up 1 inch also up this week :( )

Next week i'll be ordering my hula hoop and cooking for things from my Hungry Girl cookbooks :)

I freaking did horrible this week, stress did not help and I totally ashamed. Better work next week!

Week 4 Weigh-in

Ok, so this week was horrible and my eating went down the toilet this weel, but alas, here's the weekly results.

Bust:45.5"(up a half inch from last week)
Hips:53.5"(down a half inch from last week)
Waist:48" (stayed the same)

Better luck next week :)